Entering something already there

I never really knew what my music was supposed to be.

I began with ideas — classical, structured, intentional.

But what came out felt older than my plans.

As if it had been there before I named it.

Over time I stopped trying to guide it.

For me, music is not an event.

It is not a statement.

It is something I walk into, not something I build.

Sometimes it feels like entering a room that has just been left.

Sometimes like walking a path where I do not know what is ahead.

I do not always understand what I am writing.

I only know when it feels true.

I have chosen not to explain my work elsewhere.

Not because I do not care,

but because I believe music should be experienced without negotiation.

If you find comfort in it, that is yours.

If you find emptiness, that is yours.

If you find something unsettling, that is also yours.

I do not want to tell you what the music means.

I only wanted to leave a trace of how it feels to make it.

Jeanette